Monday, June 08, 2009

First Day of School and First day back as a WAHM

Today was my first day back at work which means I walked downstairs in my PJ's and turned on a laptop and a Blackberry that have been collecting dust for the last six months. I love working from home!

Today was also Merdi's first day of school. She is going to the same private preschool that her big brother attends. All four of us went to school together this morning and Jonah walked his sister into the classroom that Josh and I walked him into what seems like three long years ago. In his own words Jonah told the same teachers that he had, "I'll be in Ms. Wagner's class down the hall but I'll ask her if I can leave in a little while and come check on her." Tears people...lots of tears!

After several reassuring hugs from Josh in the parking lot that she would be okay, I got back in my car and made my way to Starbucks to treat myself to a Venti Iced Chai. I wore my big oversized sunglasses so they couldn't tell that I was a Mom that had just dropped off her 2 month old daughter at school so she could be changed, fed, burped, and swayed softly to sleep by someone other than me. As a new mom you always tell yourself that no one can care for your baby like you can but the truth is both of the teachers there are wonderful and I know she is in excellent hands. Plus they won't be trying to burp her while trying to type a new status update on Facebook!

I came back home to a very quiet house, sat down and enjoyed the silence for a few minutes. Then the housekeeper showed up, Riley started barking and the silence was a gone. Josh called me several minutes later and said "I'm sorry you have such a good job." He is right. I'm very fortunate to have a nice income and be able to work from home especially in today's economy. I did stay home with Jonah for a while when he was younger so I've had the experience of being both a working mom and a stay-at-home mom and I can say there are pros and cons of each. Both have their ups and downs. But right now with both of us working we are able to provide so much more to Jonah and Meredith and ourselves. Of course that doesn't keep me from feeling guilty everyday as I pack their bags for school. The one thing I'm learning while trying to juggle it all is that it's quality, not quantity. Be in the moment when you are with them, laugh and make a happy memory. That is what counts!

So, it's back to my life as a WAHM. Let the chaos resume!


jenn said...

It was so hard for me to leave our Mikenna my 1st day back at work, and she was with her grandma, I can't imagine how much more difficult it would be to leave her with someone else, I'm glad big brother Jonah was just down the hall to check on her:) Good luck as you begin "going" back to work!

The Clark Family said...

Has it been three months already? OMG...I feel for you. Know it does get better, and if you ever need another WAHM have my number. I will be in my PJs too! Hang in there!

Jenna said...

You'll get into a routine and get it all figured out! I too did the working and staying perfect answer.

Formerly Gracie said...

I'm just now getting caught up on your blog. My GoogleReader has been missing posts. Grrr :-(

Anyhoo, I think it's fabulous that you get to work at home, too. I would love the opportunity to do the same.

Guilt just comes with the mommy package, but it sounds like your daycare is a great place and the kids are in excellent hands!

I wish you the all best with going back to work. Hugs!

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